When we found out we were pregnant again, we were so happy. We've been trying to get pregnant for a few months and every false alarm was, well, alarming. It took a while before we got confirmation. The embryo seemed to take its own sweet time before it finally showed up in the ultrasound.
Maybe I should've seen it as a sign that this pregnancy wasn't going to be as easy as I thought. I had spotting in my 6th week and went on a bed rest for a few days. It's our 12th week now and we're confined in a hospital. My body is not cooperating with this pregnancy.
My OB said my cervix is open. Threat of miscarriage is higher. She mentioned something about "incompetent cervix" and possible procedure called cerclage. It's when they stitch up the cervix closed. Like any procedure, it is without risk to me or to the baby. But it seems my cervix is not really incompetent, which made my OB wonder more the cause of my condition.
I'm going home today but will be on bed rest for the next two weeks. I don't even have bathroom privileges. I don't know the mechanics of that... I'm scared of the thought... but anything for the baby. After this I'll do another ultrasound to see if my cervix improves. But it looks like I'll end up in bed for the rest of the pregnancy. The doctor also wants to do congenital testing on my 5th month. She's not saying it but I think she thinks the the baby has an abnormality causing my cervix to open. Knock on wood!
I cried the other day after my doctor talked to us. I want this baby. Heck, I want two more babies! But with this condition... This is a new journey and battle for me and my husband. There are decisions we have to make that will be difficult for us in the next six to nine months. I might need to resign from my job and that worries my husband.
I think, I can consider this as our first REAL hurdle as a couple. I know we'll get through this. It will be difficult but in the end, it will be worth it.
This blog will be my friend in the coming months...
